Human's heart is fragile. It get hurt so easy and produce a sense of pain which is more tortured than a cut on flesh.
But
It can have a magnificent rate of recovery. It takes seconds to days for those that is strong, and years for those that is weak.
In order to recover fast, we must recognize our right track of life. Right track of life is where our happy heart live. When we sad, we strayed from the track. As we allow ourselves to fall deeper into the sorrow of sadness, we had stray even further. When the hammer of conscious finally hit our thick skull, only then we realized that we have done a big mistake. But, eventually we will back to the right path, however time is wasted and we had neglected to those that love us.
Worth it ?
From this, I wish we could have a insight of telescope, but not a magnifier glass.
We have a good life ! You all know it.
Often, we use to break down for such a tiny thing, which is not significant in our life. Especially in relationship. When one get reject, one get break-up, one knew their love one be with others..
breakdown happen. The heart is pain... aching in a very unique way.
Well, it should be ache ! must be! If not, we are not human..
But, we should learn the limit. If we see things with magnifier glass, you will see none other than the problem itself. The one care for you, your happy life, career and plenty of stuffs are out of your sight. You could not move on and get stucked on the same phase of life until it was too late.
I am trying to see far enough through the insight as telescope. The little obstacle that I have faced, some time will ache my heart. But it recover soon enough, after I zoom out from my sadness and see the bigger picture.
I saw my caring family and exciting life awaiting me. My heart recover in no time because it get back to the right track.
=)
Need not to say more, how strong is your heart? is depend on how you think.
ps : To some one, to be able to heal in just one night... you are my idol =)
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Sit down, see around
Both of my parents are still alive and kicking
My mom was a full time housewife and a good cook. She is healthy and is a good friend of mine.
My father is still capable to work and earn enough to feed us. More than enough I suppose.
I live in a big family of 10+ in total. It is so lively everyday and the living hall is never silent.
My family of 5, already possess 4 cars.
I have two loyal dogs which safeguard my house 24/7.
I have no worry in $$, my mom always pump me money till I resist ! stupid hor.. haha
I have 2 pair of branded shoes, one good laptop
My room have air-cond (1.5hp), large tv, PS2, PSP, DVD players.
On top of that, which is the best thing my house have, is having a cute grandma which is still kicking at the age of 80++, watching astro without knowing what they said (her hearing not good), she will deduce the story from the image she saw.. haha, sometime it is very funny when she told her version of story. She always give me some pocket money when was back to uni.. Rm5 every time. Although it might seem not significant, but this money is so valuable and meaningful. Sometime, she will ask me to go to grocery shop to buy some daily use, (sugar, salt etc), not that my house have shortage of those, my grandma is just finding a reason to award us pocket money... haha, some time, when the goods is cost around rm2, she will award me rm5 as tips.. lolx
When I was still small, my younger brother and I always compete to help our grandma. Good way to finance our card's game hobby.. XD
Well, my grandma is still the same now... lolx, though we already teenagers, we are still kids in her eyes.
I came to realize all of this, after having conversation with a friend of mine. I am disgrace and shameful when comparing my condition with her. Despite that she was brought up from a harsh condition, she still could show the world her happy-go-lucky face. Indeed my life is soooo goooood. But I never came to really stop awhile, and appreciate it. All of this luxury I having, is came from my father, as he is the sole bread winner for my family. My friend asked, won't your father burdened by all this expenditure? Paying loan for cars, petrol and road tax etc ?
I felt like, sloping down into a swamp of shits and poops. I never asked my father did he tired and burdened from all this expenditure. My incredible father.. how can he manage to feed us all the while without us knowing how hard he earn? I never worry about the $$, they keep on pumping me $$ without me asking them. I only recall his last time salary which around rm3k plus per month, but that was like few years back. Now, I have no clue how much he is earning. Spending his money carefreely ~~ haiz
Finally, I get to stop awhile, and jot down all the goodies I have and how wonderful my life is.
In fact, my life is worth to be envy by others, even by those millionaire or those spoiled brat at sunway / taylor college. Because, it is not about money alone, it is how a family was made to stand !
What say you ? Envy of my life ?
My mom was a full time housewife and a good cook. She is healthy and is a good friend of mine.
My father is still capable to work and earn enough to feed us. More than enough I suppose.
I live in a big family of 10+ in total. It is so lively everyday and the living hall is never silent.
My family of 5, already possess 4 cars.
I have two loyal dogs which safeguard my house 24/7.
I have no worry in $$, my mom always pump me money till I resist ! stupid hor.. haha
I have 2 pair of branded shoes, one good laptop
My room have air-cond (1.5hp), large tv, PS2, PSP, DVD players.
On top of that, which is the best thing my house have, is having a cute grandma which is still kicking at the age of 80++, watching astro without knowing what they said (her hearing not good), she will deduce the story from the image she saw.. haha, sometime it is very funny when she told her version of story. She always give me some pocket money when was back to uni.. Rm5 every time. Although it might seem not significant, but this money is so valuable and meaningful. Sometime, she will ask me to go to grocery shop to buy some daily use, (sugar, salt etc), not that my house have shortage of those, my grandma is just finding a reason to award us pocket money... haha, some time, when the goods is cost around rm2, she will award me rm5 as tips.. lolx
When I was still small, my younger brother and I always compete to help our grandma. Good way to finance our card's game hobby.. XD
Well, my grandma is still the same now... lolx, though we already teenagers, we are still kids in her eyes.
I came to realize all of this, after having conversation with a friend of mine. I am disgrace and shameful when comparing my condition with her. Despite that she was brought up from a harsh condition, she still could show the world her happy-go-lucky face. Indeed my life is soooo goooood. But I never came to really stop awhile, and appreciate it. All of this luxury I having, is came from my father, as he is the sole bread winner for my family. My friend asked, won't your father burdened by all this expenditure? Paying loan for cars, petrol and road tax etc ?
I felt like, sloping down into a swamp of shits and poops. I never asked my father did he tired and burdened from all this expenditure. My incredible father.. how can he manage to feed us all the while without us knowing how hard he earn? I never worry about the $$, they keep on pumping me $$ without me asking them. I only recall his last time salary which around rm3k plus per month, but that was like few years back. Now, I have no clue how much he is earning. Spending his money carefreely ~~ haiz
Finally, I get to stop awhile, and jot down all the goodies I have and how wonderful my life is.
In fact, my life is worth to be envy by others, even by those millionaire or those spoiled brat at sunway / taylor college. Because, it is not about money alone, it is how a family was made to stand !
What say you ? Envy of my life ?
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Unlucky ? or perhaps my lucky day. .
Just in mere 2 day, 3 things happened on my car..
Perodua Myvi.
Case one, both of my window wiper get stolen. Maybe because I had parked my car quite far from my house. I didn't realize it until the rain fall. When I swipe the wiper,
shit.. only two stick were wiping around without the wiper. I had drove through the rain from Uni to my rented house at ss2. Extremely careful.
Case two, On the very same day. Happened at night, when I decided to go back Kepong, just when I reversed my car, I heard
'krooooooookkkkk' . . . . . . . . .
=.="
Hell yeah, a wall scratched my car. The scar is so visible and significant. Lol, my beautiful myvi which had protected well all along, is finally screwed in the hand of mine.
Case three, happened on the next day. On the way return from Sunway Pyramid after had my dinner with Xiaxang gang..
My car is starve to death !
Apparently I forget to feed my car. The oil indicator had dropped to the last gauge since 2 day ago, and I am still driving happily from
PJ - Uni - PJ - Kepong - Pj - Uni - Sunway - and final destination
Ldp highway ... when on the way back to Kepong.
Just 600m from toll, I felt that my car was losing its 'umph..' just like when hiking a hill with full load. Then jou choke har choke har...
and finally the engine failed.
Haiz, I direct my slowing down car to the left lane and activate the 'double signal'.
My car, is starve to death... certified -.-"
The engine died on me.. I can't even start it.
I called my parents and wait them to come.
Cars were pass-by my car with great speed. A lot flashed their light and some even hon. Before my parents came.. A police stopped by and ask me to move my car to safe site. Eventually I have disrupt the left lane, and it is gravely dangerous, when it happened on highway..
But, the nearest safe site is near the toll.
Which is 600 M away !
The police and I were pushing the car. I was exhausted like shit. Right after I saw the toll which is 100m away, my parents finally came.
They bought some fuel and feed my car. Thanks to the police which helped me out. My arms was so tired until can't drive anymore. I let my mom drive instead.
So... what do you think? I was damn unlucky right ?
But, after a deep thought... I think I am very lucky indeed.
Case 1: How if my car was stolen instead of my wiper? Lucky I only lost a pair of wiper. Gracious
Case 2: My deep confident in driving has cause me to drive quite recklessly. This little scratch had remind me to be extra caution. A little scratch is nothing compare to a 'big bang' on road. Gracious
Case 3: I have a bad habit in feeding my car before it get really empty. Now I already learn my lesson d.. sked jor. Last time, I always joke with friend about pushing car when I saw their oil indicator is low. Now that I have physically experienced it.. pushing my heavy myvi
KAO KAO. What can I say more... lol, rajin sikit la, feed your car often ! How lucky I was, because my parents were just finish their dinner function at 1 Utama and were on their way back.
Gracious for everything that happened on you, it might not as bad as it seem. :)
Perodua Myvi.
Case one, both of my window wiper get stolen. Maybe because I had parked my car quite far from my house. I didn't realize it until the rain fall. When I swipe the wiper,
shit.. only two stick were wiping around without the wiper. I had drove through the rain from Uni to my rented house at ss2. Extremely careful.
Case two, On the very same day. Happened at night, when I decided to go back Kepong, just when I reversed my car, I heard
'krooooooookkkkk' . . . . . . . . .
=.="
Hell yeah, a wall scratched my car. The scar is so visible and significant. Lol, my beautiful myvi which had protected well all along, is finally screwed in the hand of mine.
Case three, happened on the next day. On the way return from Sunway Pyramid after had my dinner with Xiaxang gang..
My car is starve to death !
Apparently I forget to feed my car. The oil indicator had dropped to the last gauge since 2 day ago, and I am still driving happily from
PJ - Uni - PJ - Kepong - Pj - Uni - Sunway - and final destination
Ldp highway ... when on the way back to Kepong.
Just 600m from toll, I felt that my car was losing its 'umph..' just like when hiking a hill with full load. Then jou choke har choke har...
and finally the engine failed.
Haiz, I direct my slowing down car to the left lane and activate the 'double signal'.
My car, is starve to death... certified -.-"
The engine died on me.. I can't even start it.
I called my parents and wait them to come.
Cars were pass-by my car with great speed. A lot flashed their light and some even hon. Before my parents came.. A police stopped by and ask me to move my car to safe site. Eventually I have disrupt the left lane, and it is gravely dangerous, when it happened on highway..
But, the nearest safe site is near the toll.
Which is 600 M away !
The police and I were pushing the car. I was exhausted like shit. Right after I saw the toll which is 100m away, my parents finally came.
They bought some fuel and feed my car. Thanks to the police which helped me out. My arms was so tired until can't drive anymore. I let my mom drive instead.
So... what do you think? I was damn unlucky right ?
But, after a deep thought... I think I am very lucky indeed.
Case 1: How if my car was stolen instead of my wiper? Lucky I only lost a pair of wiper. Gracious
Case 2: My deep confident in driving has cause me to drive quite recklessly. This little scratch had remind me to be extra caution. A little scratch is nothing compare to a 'big bang' on road. Gracious
Case 3: I have a bad habit in feeding my car before it get really empty. Now I already learn my lesson d.. sked jor. Last time, I always joke with friend about pushing car when I saw their oil indicator is low. Now that I have physically experienced it.. pushing my heavy myvi
KAO KAO. What can I say more... lol, rajin sikit la, feed your car often ! How lucky I was, because my parents were just finish their dinner function at 1 Utama and were on their way back.
Gracious for everything that happened on you, it might not as bad as it seem. :)
Monday, January 18, 2010
Glad that I see morning
Are you sure you gonna wake up tomorrow morning ?
Often, we are so sure that we are young and have a countless day ahead. So, we have waste our days and nights. Pushing our works and promises to other day.
So, we end our day doing nothing and head to our bed just like every other nights.
Are you sure you are gonna wake up tomorrow ?
This might be our last night, and tomorrow we will be cold and stiff like woods.
Have you say sorry to your parents before sleep? Have you confess your feeling to the one you love?
Be able to wake up every morning is a gift, because we are still given a chance to forgive the one that hurt you, to seek apology to the one you hurt, and to repay your debt to your parents.
Life is like a broken tape. It keep replaying without us knowing that we are actually doing the same thing each time, if you are believe in reborn cycle. From small, we learn how to socialize, and then working hard to accomplish our vision. As we successfully built our empire, be it millionaire or billionaire, we will eventually become old and then die. Leaving our treasures and knowledge behind.
We undergo reborn and the cycle restart, just like a broken tape. Begin our life as white paper.
Human are self-fish in nature. We fight for our right and we try to become stronger than other so that we could excel and successful. In business, we do not mind to suppress our competitor, even by causing them to bankrupt. But in the end, we could not take along all of this to our grave.
Food for thought.. if we are really undergo countless of reborn cycle, doesn't mean that we have doing useless thing all the while ?
Should we stop to think for ourselves, and start contributing to society ? hmm . .
Often, we are so sure that we are young and have a countless day ahead. So, we have waste our days and nights. Pushing our works and promises to other day.
So, we end our day doing nothing and head to our bed just like every other nights.
Are you sure you are gonna wake up tomorrow ?
This might be our last night, and tomorrow we will be cold and stiff like woods.
Have you say sorry to your parents before sleep? Have you confess your feeling to the one you love?
Be able to wake up every morning is a gift, because we are still given a chance to forgive the one that hurt you, to seek apology to the one you hurt, and to repay your debt to your parents.
Life is like a broken tape. It keep replaying without us knowing that we are actually doing the same thing each time, if you are believe in reborn cycle. From small, we learn how to socialize, and then working hard to accomplish our vision. As we successfully built our empire, be it millionaire or billionaire, we will eventually become old and then die. Leaving our treasures and knowledge behind.
We undergo reborn and the cycle restart, just like a broken tape. Begin our life as white paper.
Human are self-fish in nature. We fight for our right and we try to become stronger than other so that we could excel and successful. In business, we do not mind to suppress our competitor, even by causing them to bankrupt. But in the end, we could not take along all of this to our grave.
Food for thought.. if we are really undergo countless of reborn cycle, doesn't mean that we have doing useless thing all the while ?
Should we stop to think for ourselves, and start contributing to society ? hmm . .
Friday, January 8, 2010
Photostop 4 Fun ep1
Photoshop is great ! It is so great that it could change the look of everything in this world. . .
Visually haha. Well, I am still a newbie in this software, but just knowing a few basic function of this awesome ps3 extended, you could make a great change... lolx
As always, quinn is my all time favorite mascot ! haha
Quinidus The Spartan !
Visually haha. Well, I am still a newbie in this software, but just knowing a few basic function of this awesome ps3 extended, you could make a great change... lolx
As always, quinn is my all time favorite mascot ! haha
Quinidus The Spartan !
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
What Kind of Giver r U ?
Ever tried before to GIVE, but never ask for return ?
For what I think, most of people in this world are expecting a return for what they give.
In fact, giving can be in many forms :
Help people out, especially girls in order to win their attention and impression. There it go, we are asking for return in form of their attention and impression. Well, I think most of the guys are like this right?
Even when we are giving out donation to nearby temples or to help out some unfortunate people, indeed in our heart, we are hoping that god will notice and bless us for our good deed. There it go, we are asking for return..
Are there any true giver in this world ?
Often, we came to disappointment. When what we give, do not return as we wished.
Try to think from your point of view... actually, did you ever give something and hope no return?
Anyway, is there a need to become a true giver ? Is there ?
IF
One could become a true giver, then he will never be disappointed by anything. Disappointment is came with expectation. To expect nothing, nothing can disappoint you.
However, if we really could do this . . then I guess we had 9 dots on our bald head already. Haha
But,
Is it wrong to wish for return ?
Of course it don't . . just that we will never win against the 'sensation' of disappointment.
For what I think, most of people in this world are expecting a return for what they give.
In fact, giving can be in many forms :
Help people out, especially girls in order to win their attention and impression. There it go, we are asking for return in form of their attention and impression. Well, I think most of the guys are like this right?
Even when we are giving out donation to nearby temples or to help out some unfortunate people, indeed in our heart, we are hoping that god will notice and bless us for our good deed. There it go, we are asking for return..
Are there any true giver in this world ?
Often, we came to disappointment. When what we give, do not return as we wished.
Try to think from your point of view... actually, did you ever give something and hope no return?
Anyway, is there a need to become a true giver ? Is there ?
IF
One could become a true giver, then he will never be disappointed by anything. Disappointment is came with expectation. To expect nothing, nothing can disappoint you.
However, if we really could do this . . then I guess we had 9 dots on our bald head already. Haha
But,
Is it wrong to wish for return ?
Of course it don't . . just that we will never win against the 'sensation' of disappointment.
Friday, January 1, 2010
2010
Happy New Year 2010 !
How am I going to plan my year ahead ?
I have been peacefully walking along a long road till I bumped into a diverged road.
One road lead to my usual 'me'
and another lead to some where 'I don know' .
Before holiday came to and end, I have decided to join an event called MIB. An big event which required commitment. The usual me, will love to take up such an event to sharpen up my organizing skill by which it is not my first time to take up as event organizer.
Well, uni life without something else to keep you busy other than study is not fun at all. NO LIFE.
Haih, as a matter of fact, I did not planned to join this event from the very beginning. I am kinda reserved my time and commitment for the upcoming Uni's election after holiday.
But, holiday is almost come to an end, yet no information is reaching my ear. So, without hesitation I have took up the offer of upholding the responsibility of 'tai-xia-chong-zian' (should be person-in-charge below stage). Quite an important post I have, and I am happy with the challenges await me.
Hmmm, Just today... the very begining of 2010. I have been noticed that I am still valid to be nominated as MPMUM's candidate. But heck . . .
As I knew that I have been sticking both of my legs into MIB.
I have been wondered, could I take part in both of this route? Each of this event, will deal a great experience in my life.
But being the rational me, as I am already senior in this University.. I shall knew that it is hard to balance within study and activities.
2 Mega projects = study neglected
1 project + 1 study = another project neglected
study + 0 project = NO LIFE !
You see my dificulty? I have been neglecting my study all the while and realize that I can't play with my study anymore. So, there is no way I will take up two project .
Which one shall I let go?
MIB that filled with 'ren ching wei' ?
@
MPMUM that make me feels the political world?
I would rather see the MIB as a clear, clean and visible road which 90% of people will choose. I saw how it would end and it is a good ending.
For another route. It is dark, messy and filled with horror. The path is covered by storms and mist. The end is unpredictable. (Uni politic is dirty...shhhh don tell anyone)
But, my curiousity, wanna know what is awaiting me at the end of the 'untaken route'. However, as I have become matured (2nd years.. ahem), it make me feel like playing safe.
So . . . . I guess, I will take the ________ road
*Still considering.. though my decision is quite obvious*
How am I going to plan my year ahead ?
I have been peacefully walking along a long road till I bumped into a diverged road.
One road lead to my usual 'me'and another lead to some where 'I don know' .
Before holiday came to and end, I have decided to join an event called MIB. An big event which required commitment. The usual me, will love to take up such an event to sharpen up my organizing skill by which it is not my first time to take up as event organizer.
Well, uni life without something else to keep you busy other than study is not fun at all. NO LIFE.
Haih, as a matter of fact, I did not planned to join this event from the very beginning. I am kinda reserved my time and commitment for the upcoming Uni's election after holiday.
But, holiday is almost come to an end, yet no information is reaching my ear. So, without hesitation I have took up the offer of upholding the responsibility of 'tai-xia-chong-zian' (should be person-in-charge below stage). Quite an important post I have, and I am happy with the challenges await me.
Hmmm, Just today... the very begining of 2010. I have been noticed that I am still valid to be nominated as MPMUM's candidate. But heck . . .
As I knew that I have been sticking both of my legs into MIB.
I have been wondered, could I take part in both of this route? Each of this event, will deal a great experience in my life.
But being the rational me, as I am already senior in this University.. I shall knew that it is hard to balance within study and activities.
2 Mega projects = study neglected
1 project + 1 study = another project neglected
study + 0 project = NO LIFE !
You see my dificulty? I have been neglecting my study all the while and realize that I can't play with my study anymore. So, there is no way I will take up two project .
Which one shall I let go?
MIB that filled with 'ren ching wei' ?
@
MPMUM that make me feels the political world?
I would rather see the MIB as a clear, clean and visible road which 90% of people will choose. I saw how it would end and it is a good ending.
For another route. It is dark, messy and filled with horror. The path is covered by storms and mist. The end is unpredictable. (Uni politic is dirty...shhhh don tell anyone)
But, my curiousity, wanna know what is awaiting me at the end of the 'untaken route'. However, as I have become matured (2nd years.. ahem), it make me feel like playing safe.
So . . . . I guess, I will take the ________ road
*Still considering.. though my decision is quite obvious*
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